Saturday, 2 December 2017

Home

I know there's a place where she could see her mom and dad wake up & sleep
I know there's a place where food always served so she would not again starves
I know there's a place she grew a family tree with cares & loves

But mam...

I do too know there's a place where day & night she got accompanied
I do know there's a place she spread her wings working out of her dreams
And i know there's a place where her buddies extreamely good at making nightmares into jokes

It's not your fault if you never known
But i'm sorry,
Here... she's happy

Monday, 9 October 2017

Topeng

Suatu masa seorang mempertanyakan
"Topeng apa yang kau kenakan?"

Suatu masa aku menyatakan
"Suatu kehidupan"

Suatu masa aku berhadap-hadapan dengan Tuhan
Dengan janji tanpa saksi

Kemudian datang seribu wajah menawan
Mengucapkan
"Kau adalah Aku yang kau sembunyikan"

Suatu masa aku datang dengan kebebasan
Kemudian seorang menatapku heran
"Rupamu mengerikan"

Thursday, 5 October 2017

Help

When he starts to deal with devil, he sees nothing other than ugly
As mirror reflects beauty only cruelty

As he only taste pain in every meal
he becomes lost from a concept like love

Imprison me in his gravity
A freedom would only delivers me torture

Even i've signed help underneath my whisper
None could ever decoded my frequencies

Or even there're ears hearken my plead,
They would suffer a death penalty
Thus like a ghost story, my pain is unreal









Tuesday, 25 July 2017

Dreams

how to send your thoughts frequencies through your dreams?

a signal as close to a deity vision
or a devilish whisper

for some of us who love solitude
dreams are mystical way to communicate

because not like a postcard that could be saved and memorized
dreams are meant to be forgotten

i could send my thoughts to yours temporarily
without a bound necessarily involved

that way we could forever in solitary

now how to send my thoughts frequencies through your dreams?
no worry
all that i am and all that i ever was will all disappear

Monday, 20 March 2017

Lady of Eden

mama never asked me to be a billionaire
nor a president nor an astronaut or to be an engineer
She only asked me to finish my study so i cloud be anyone i pleased

She never asked me to build her a new fancy house to live in
She said to the rest of her life the house she fought for to build with her husband is more than just perfect

She calls me when i far away
And take the consequences to be alone day after day to see me graduate
And by knowing here i'am well and have a good life,
Her loneliness doesn't match to her happiness

And every time i asked what she was doing
She answered that she was watching television

She never buy some cloths, shoes or bags like she used to when she was younger
When papa could buy her some pair of those pretty things she likes

After papa's gone, She never put on make up ever since not even a lipstick
she said...
"Who would see me, if it's not your father?"

Why don't you just ask me something?
because i'd love to give you everything

I would like to be anything you want
I would build you fancy house with thousands of flowers around
I want to see you having a great holiday not just watching television
I want you to wear expensive branded clothes, shoes and bags, because you are still beautiful

Maybe you thought that someday i will marry a man and become someone's wife
Left you behind taking care of my own family
but if you just know what is my heart desire
I will forever want to be your daughter


Sunday, 19 March 2017

Caterpillar

I heard caterpillar decides to begin her metamorphic phase when she could not bears tears any longer
That time she would wraps herself thread by thread to commit suicide
Dies in her own isolation, she makes a cocoon

To be not noticed, the silence she tried
Yet if your ears good enough, you would hear she cried
Every noon and every the light of moon

I wonder, what possibly made her sad?
Some say, it all the matter of love
She weep in a case of broken heart

And as the closest moment of final breath, as she comes into a near death
God would appears and wipe her tears
He would forgives and grant her apology

At the moment where all fully peace and heaven's beauty
He gives her wings and a reborn to gain more bliss

Thus every time she flies in every winds against
She would loosen her memories
So then, until the time has back to let her rest, she has completely forgotten the loved she had once

The butterflies mend to fly only to forget
Because without a love from anyone, she could joy her death back

Sunday, 22 January 2017

Coincidence or Fate

coincidence or fate

dad indeed has gone
in a surprise death,
left us with so many questions...

coincidence or fate

left us with some promises which has broken
yet too left us one beautiful answer

"InshaAllah" dad's last hand writing was found on a piece of paper

Coincidence or fate

On his last breath, dad has paid his debt